grown up

I remember the time when my hands couldn't reach the top of the refrigerator so my mom would keep things she didn't want to get my hands on over the top..
So when I got so tall that I could chose things to keep there over the top of the 'fridge' I'd think I've grown.
Used to wear half pants to my school and used to see my seniors in long length trousers I used to think..I'll wear it someday..
And the day came and I thought I've grown up.
When my mom made me wear a formal shirt to a family function, I was the part of the MEN crowd and I felt like such a grown up.
We used pencils back then to write our notes..so when I bought my first 'ink pen' I felt like a grown up.
Mom wouldn't let me use the landline BSNL phone on my own..and if she did, wasn't allowed to talk for long like she and my dad would talk to other people..
So when I ended up a call that lasted more than an hour and mom did not stop me..I felt I've grown up.
Used to see in movies how the actor would go out on a date with the actress and she'd smile and say 'I love you' I thought will I ever get there.
And then I dated. Felt the pain of a heartbreak too. And while I was sitting in the darkness wiping my tears, it felt I've really grown up. I'm not a kid anymore.
When I used to collect coins and put it in a piggy bank I'd wonder I'll spent it on a new Bay-Blade collection..
And when I was buying my first Saree for my mother from the money I saved in my wallet, I felt I've grown up..
When I saw news on Television instead of cartoons, I felt I've grown up..
Used to stand outside the airport seeing a plane fly..
As I'd cross the airport..to me it was a miracle..
And when I had my first flight...I was sure I'm a grown man..
When I used to walk with my uncle and he'd meet someone he knew and they'd say "kabhi aana Bhabhi ji ko le kar" and walk again..I'd see him smile awkwardly..
I realized I've grown up when I actually showed up in the middle of a blind date of a friend.
I used to ride a friend's tricycle while other kids rode bicycles and bikes.
So when I sneaked away my brother's car and drove it all the way.. I felt I've grown up.
When I dropped in a ten rupee note into a beggar's bowl, I was so sure I've grown up..
When I was in a restaurant and called for the waiter for the first time and he came and bowed and asked saying, "yes sir?" I felt like such a grown up..
Going to those fancy fairs and enjoy the rides was all I used to live for At one point of time; so when I said no to that and chose to hangout with my family once, I was so proud. I wanted someone to tell me I've grown up.
And I felt I've grown.
Took me years to realize that to me, my face never changed because every day I used to look into the mirror, it was just my face.
Every single day, it was me and yet people who saw me after years told me..how I looked so different..
And the only evidence to prove the testimony were pictures.
Years went by.
When I was by my friend's side when he lost his father, we both discussed now we've grown up..
Then I saw wrinkles on my parents faces..
My brothers face..
That aunt who'd scold us if the ball would bounce into the balcony..who wouldn't shout anymore and passed away..
The shopkeeper who'd give me free chocolates just like that..was old..and in pain..
When those raw soft drinks after the basketball game became whiskey and beer..I was sure I've grown up.
And here I am..
Thinking about everything I've been through and how time still didn't stop or pause.
How the definition of growing old just scares me now.
How; somehow I feel like if only I could go back in time and be that kid again..
who knew nothing about the world..
who used to have a handful of friends to talk and play with and no responsibilities and sleep at 9 and wake up at 6 get ready for school and meet those scary teachers and live everything all over again.
And all I could gather so far is that in the end, we never really grow up, do we?
Nah, Not even when we're 101.
Because growing up should be fulfilling but we are the images of our imagination.
The journey never stops.
It's an illusion.
We just stop believing that we're never grown up.
Try as may, we couldn't possibly understand why we're here after all now, could we?
It's just the memories we will take away.
The pain, the laughter, the love, the denial..
All those emotions..it's all about it.
Everything else is just ordinary.
It's one of these days I feel everyone around me might be satisfied but no one is content.
They'll never be.
And all I can say about us...
Well, if I could gather all of that from my memories I want to believe I've grown..
But then, I really don't want to.
#mainsachitsingh
#love
#spreadlove

WITNESS HAPPENED

I met a lady who was forced to marry a guy she hated from her college day but he took it on his 'apparent' male ego and as he was from the same community, convinced the girl's parents and funnily they got married.
On the wedding night she was raped by her own husband and now he sleeps with other women.
The statement he said, "Bola tha na Maine..biwi banunga tujhe..aur apne ghar mein paalunga'
Just like you guys..I was puzzled with one question: I asked the lady, why didn't you tell all of it to your parents and stopped the marriage?
"Bola tha..
Sab bataya..magar same community ka tha aur paise waali humaare level ki family thi toh they said..shaadi ke kuch time baad Sab thik ho jayega"
Haha..
Sahi hai!
Now she's depressed and suicidal.
We've talked a lot of the times about how a person's age of marriage should be 22-23-24 or in some cool timings 25.
We may have parents who might understand this but they will make you do it because of 'duniya bolegi ki 26 saal ki beti ko Abhi tak ghar mein rakha hua hai!'
I totally get family's who won't allow their kids to get married to someone from the other community, oh, and may I add "RIVAL COMMUNITY!"
'Humaare khandan ki ladkiyan chhote kapde nahi pehenti'
'Humaare family mein ladkiyaan kaam Nahi karti!"
"Mobile mein itna internet kahan use ho raha hai?"
"Humaare ghar ki betiyan parties mein Nahi jaati..ladkon se door raho..nazar neeche karke sadak pe chalo..
Sharma ji ki beti ko dekha hai..
Kaisi besharam hai..jab dekho ladke aaye rehte hain uske aas paas..
Izzat..reputation..
Arey kaahe ki izzat bhaisaab?
Mughal zamaane ke raja ho ya Shah Jahan aapki mausi ka ladka lagta hai?
I'm sorry but this is just going out of hands.
The generation?
No..
The mentality?
No.
The pressure of societal trauma.
Call my statement 'Sanskaar-heen', but if we haven't moved past the one thing that's killing uncountable people on a daily basis.
"Hum apne bachche ke ache ke liye hi usko mana karte hain!"
Self defence mechanism achi baat hai..
But baandh kar khaandaan ka darr dikha kar aapne uske
And to all you people, who plan on committing suicide anytime soon..hear me out.
It's a phase.
Just like everything is.
Think about it..
It's a day which will pass..
And a new day will come..
"Don't go against your family and choose killing yourself to save the SO-CALLED izzat of your family!"
Does it even make sense?
You'll die and leave your family in a world which would be worse than 'saving the izzat'.
Talk about things.
"Sab karke dekh liya yaar..koi faayda nahi"
Achi baat hai..yar
Aur karo..
If you don't find anyone who understands, I got your back.
A stranger from an illusional world who'll be there.
I know it's a cliché talking about women's rights but..ladies..just having a family that's cool with you partying and guys friends..that's not freedom, if you're forced to get married to someone you don't want to.
No ma'am. And if all people you know it.
Feel what you have.
Look at yourself in the mirror.
You see that person looking at you from there?
There's so much more in you than the world has seen..
And you want to leave it all only because it got complicated for a few days/months?
Change the rules.
Redefine everything..but do not lose hope.
Never lose hope.
One second worth of mistake will change your 25 years worth of experience.
Think about it.
You're strong.
Stronger than the world has ever seen you.
Be unemotional if that helps but quitting is stupid.
It's so lame, I cannot even begin to define it.
As you read this, the girl is also one of the readers.
She's reading this right now.
And I want you to know, the world has so much more to offer than just the forced reputation and alterations of moods.
Everyone else will tell you how beautiful you are and how your one strong move can change it.
"Shaadi ke baad sab badal jata hai.."
"Sab cheez ki aadat ho jayegi"
"Adjust karna padta hai...shaadi ka dusra naam hi Compromise hai"
Ah, sorry but you cannot rename bullshit with compromise.
I respect other generations but this concept makes no point.
The only way out Is talking.
More talking!
Till they get irritated or furious or violent..but at least make them think about the norms we've created for ourselves.
Age is just a number, they say right?
But who appointed roll numbers to life changing decisions?
Something to talk about, maybe?
#mainsachitsingh
#Changethought
#changelives
#LiveAndLetLive

Dear Dad

Dear Dad
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Every Father’s Day, Kids and wives across the country stands in front of the card section at the local gift shop, staring blankly into an endless selection of over-the-top-sappy, thats-just-not-my-Dad greeting cards, searching for the perfect card that sends the perfect message.

Something as basic as: You’ve been a good Dad. Thank you.
But those cards don’t seem to exist. And even if they did, there would be a strange feeling of inadequate expression if that were the only thing they told dad on Father’s Day.

In the spirit of appreciating the wonderful fathers we’ve been fortunate to know, today I wanted to share with you a few the things dear old dad has taught me over the years.

My Dad taught me that if someone is mad at you, you’ve done something. Look at yourself and your actions that could have caused their change towards you.

My Dad taught me to trust in God for everything.

My Dad taught me that family is forever.

My Dad taught me to work hard, yet stay humble.
My Dad taught me the value of family.

My Dad taught me how to serve.
My Dad taught me to be an individual, not to roll with the crowd for the popular opinion.

My Dad taught me to work harder – no one owes you anything.

My Dad taught me to always keep your word.

My Dad taught me to work hard in life in order to achieve your dreams.
My Dad taught me faith, love and laughter will bring you through anything.

My Dad taught me to have a sense of humor.

My Dad taught me that nothing in this world is free. You will have to work for everything that you get. It is not acceptable to rely on anyone else to support and provide for you or your family.

My Dad taught me not to do something just for the recognition.

My Dad taught me the value of making my carrier and paycheck.

My Dad taught me how to ride a bike, drive a car.

My Dad taught me to keep my credit and my last name clean.

My Dad taught me that if you’re going to be dumb, you better be tough.

My Dad taught me to be independent, but not to refuse someone’s help if I need it.

My Dad taught me the most important thing:

How to be a better human being.
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Hi Dad,
You know When I was 7, I'd think everybody's fathers are strict.
Because of course they should be; that's why they send you to school. Right?
When I'd come back home, you'd ask me the multiplication table of 7 or 9 and I'd make mistakes and you'd scold me and won't let me watch TV or play outside and I used to hate you for that.
He'd embarrass me in front of my friends and relatives by taunting about how I didn't score well in my exams and I'd hate him even more.
When I stole those 21 rupees and you beat me I hated you because kids used to get pocket money I didn't!
All the other kids would talk about how they went on family vacations and I had no such stories because he'd say you didn't study well so no vacations for you,
I'd curse it so much that I started giving up on food, not talk to anyone and get annoyed at everything.
But then every Christmas I'd keep a sock near the tree with a paper full of my wishes and happened to get most of them in the morning..
Me ,my brthrs and my little sister we'd be amazed and I used to think..
I don't want this papa, get me someone who doesn't scold me for everything.
As years went by and I grew up and got mature hitting puberty, you'd not allow me to go hangout with my friends and I almost had it!
All of it.
What the hell was wrong with you?
I'd think you're crazy, you're not changing with the World..
Hah,
The egoistically arrogant nature made me conclude I don't share a good relationship with my father,
Years went by and I graduated; became who I am today..
When I had my first day in my office  and you texted me that's you're a proud father and believe in me, I couldn't help but cry my heart out alone..
And now when I see you..
You've turned a little old,
I see wrinkles around your eyes, you talk about our future plans..and it scares me to my soul..but I realised the gift you have given me.
Back then I didn't know you were my Santa and I didn't realise that I was a kid who was getting everything even when it appeared I wasn't.
The struggle stories you tell me how you started everything from nothing makes so much sense to me now.
When I come back from work exhausted and tired, I feel what you felt..
Those scoldings of childhood became life lessons for me and I can't thank you enough for all of it.
I didn't realise how hard a job it is to be a father until I saw you in tears when my legs couldn't work for a year and you'd hide and cry seeing your son in pain.
Couldn't really apologise for those times when I said hurtful things to you behind your back and for all those times I let you down.
I know people who lost their fathers so early in their lives and I see the regret of not being able to express their love to them..
I always felt I have been growing up without a loving father, if only I'd known that you were the sunshine to my journey.
I don't know how to bring back those years to give you a world full of happiness but then this is just a way to let you know from the core of my honoured heart, that you sir, are an inspiration to me and to those who have had the chance to know you personally.
As cliché as it may be but today, I guess, this is just a way to Thank you and apologise for everything...
And I want you to know,
Everything that I am, and everything that I ever will be, is and will always be yours!
 to every father and mothers who've shaped our lives in absence of fathers!
#mainsachitsingh
# youand____stories

Pal Pal Har Pal

Pal Pal Har Pal (Pal = Friend)


Throughout my life, my friends have always been there for me… they have helped me to maintain my stability and happiness. They always help me when I’m in trouble and they share my joy when I am happy. They are like candlelights that brighten up my way by providing me with their priceless advice. Some of them are so close to me that I even consider them a part of my family.
each of those moments was special because they were there to share them with me… Now that I’ve said this, I guess it would be better for me to tell YOU a litlle bit more about each of them.
(I will have pics of each of them soon)

Subhojit Ghosh(bonny)

If what you are looking for is fun and an awesome person to share your life with… go with Bonny He is always hyper and full of joy to give to his friends and we love to talk and basically chill together. He is one of my best friends and he knows how important he is in my life. We’ve spent the coolest moments together!! Everyone that knows me in person knows exactly how much I talk abut him and how important he has been in my life. With Bonny I not only found true friendship… I also discovered the real meaning of love. He loves a girl since high school and trust me he haven’t fallen for anyone else. He is by far the most amazing and mysterious person I have met in my life. Bonny: thanx for giving me some of the best moments of my whole life… and eventhough we might seem to be separated, you know that deep down we’ll always be one.

Shristi Agarwal

Shrics and I have gone through soooo much in the last couple of years. We have laughed and cried, but most importantly we have grown immensely from each other’s company. He is one of the most admirable and passionate people I know and I love him dearly. Thank you Gotiya for bringing the sunshine into my life.

Shweta Agarwal(rajnikant)

I consider her to be one of the most influential friends. She taught me millions of things, and you can thank her for who I am now. We had big big fights and when i say BIG its really BIG. She understands almost everything and sometimes this is the thing that i didnt really liked about her but now i know thats the best part of her. There is no one like her. She thinks she doesn’t knows me but i can assure her one think, at this moment if there is a girl(friend) on earth who knows me very well, its Shweta. With Shweta I spent incredible moments & she is the one who knows everything about me… hehehe I know many things about her also…. She loves music and dancing… Shweta is a happy person who would give everything to someone she cares for. I call her Rajnikant for a reason and she knows that.

Honey Singh

When you move to a new locality the last thing you expect is to find friends that are so valuable and important that fast. When I moved here(punjabi para) I met Honey the 2nd day of Apna Utsav, and since then we started this journey of happiness and adventure called friendship. He has become more than a friend to me, he’s always there when I need him and with a smile to share when I’m sad. We have fun everytime when we are together, it’s like if magic surrounded us and made of that moment a special one everytime. I’m so thankful that destiny placed this brother cum friend in my life because I know we have something that will last 4ever. Sardaar: I just wanna thank you for being always by my side and for just being you… yOu kIcK aSs!!!

Rohit Sharma(kanji)

Definately one of the coolest dudes I have ever met. With Rohit I’ve spent the coolest and craziest times of my life. We get so hyper together it’s not even funny. I am really glad he is a part of my life because he is a really good friend, who is always willing to listen to you when you need him. We are “work out” partners and our goal is to build 6 pack to show off our muscular bodies [yeah right!!] hehehe… He is really an honest guy and can never tell a lie. I count on him and respect him a lot.!

Komal Chugh

Komal is one of the most authentic human beings I have met in my life. Although we haven’t spent much time together but yet she has demonstrated how much she is worth time and time again and has never disappointed me. Therefore, she occupies a very special place in my heart, and with her I’ve spent some of the best times EVER! Thanx Komal for always putting a smile on my face. I love Ya!

Pushkar Jeetu (pussycat)

Jeetu is one of the best friends I have ever had. We shared the coolest times together… I mean… I hardly ever connect with someone in so many levels as I did with him. He was always there for me… and I think we both really grew up thanks to each other’s company. We were relationship  in childhood times ........n play games with him to the most craziest moment of my life specially scooter waali accident..... Whn we meet up we discuss our future n he guides me vry well... Thank u Man to support like my brother.....  and although he is enjoying the good life right now… I know that deep down we will always be tight. Jeetu … thanx for helping me to express my true self… U R Awesome!

Arannya Bhaduri(guddu)

I met Guddu at Delhi  about a year ago… but somehow it seems like I’ve known him for a lifetime. He is what I call a TRUE friend. He is always there for me when I need a shoulder to lean on. Guddu is a very talented Artist and a very passionate and goal driven individual. I know there are great things waiting for Guddu in the future… and I definately hope I will be by His side to share them with him.

Hemant Agarwal

Hemant is one of the wickedest guys I’ve ever met. We basically started hanging out, but in this very short time period he has shown me what a true friendship is. When we are together, we can talk about anything and just chilling is AWESOME! He has become my best friend and hopefully this will last 4ever. Love ya Man

Rahul Garg(idly)

“Chota Packet Bada Dhamaka”. I guess this would be the perfect term to define him. I have no idea how we became good friends but one thing i want to say about him.. He is one little MAN. There is a saying “Never judge a book by its cover”, once when you get to know rahul; you will agree to this saying. When i was ill and hospitalised for some days in Delhi, there was not a single day when he didn’t came to my home or hospital to see me. I owe him a lot. A sweet and kind friend.

Sonu Bhardwaj (hawas ka pujari)
haha sry man,

Sonu is a very clever guy, he met me when I was in class 9th ,and since then we became very good friends, we use to talk about lots of things, and we shared one of the best moments in our lives… and then suddenly…. time was a bad friend…. we had to split because I'm going to shift in Delhi  ,but  our friendship tirned to a great friendship. He is a complete entertainer , flirting with girls… he likes to insulting any of them and he is a Guy who masters in the art of hiding emotions behind laughter and his stupid jokes ...overall I must say I will always wid u buddy n me n u gng to famous temple (Hanumaan Mandir) vry soon. I always want you beside me.

Smiti Tamang(munni)

Smiti is the sweetest thing! At first when I saw her, I was amazed, she was really gorgeous but few months back she told me that we we saw each other for the first time she thought i was a very egostic person. One of the most amazing thing about our friendship is that since we became friends, WE NEVER MET. Yes we didn’t. Recently she got married and i really wanted to be with her on that very special day of her life but for some reason i couldn’t. We support and help each other a lot (i guess so). She is a sweet girl and loves dancing a lot. Her husband really cares for her, I never met him in person or had a word with him but i know he Does.for the longest time I thought she hated me and that she was glaring at me, but then I got to know her and discovered the sweet and caring girl behind those glares. We’ve had so much fun together, like grad and our tanning sessions. Thanks Emily for always being there for me and for worrying about me, XoXo .

Ankita jaiswal (Seno,Anny)

Alright, I’m wondering why I’m writing this?! I’ve never been more excited to write. This post is for a girl who is really mysterious but still I feel I know her. I still can’t figure how I found her but I don’t want to think about that. At first we used to chat on insta very formally but then we started talking like we are good friends. Even today we do the same, we talk like any normal good friends does. We hardly share few likes and dislikes in common but love to chat. She is one girl who is original, Cannot be replaced. I do have female friends and they are really good to me and as person too. I feel lucky to have then but when its comes about mysterious girl, Well I don’t know what to say, I Smile and Smile and Smile. The funniest part is, Sometimes she gets angry on any situation thn  I reply with a smiley ” 🙂 “. I like the way she is. There are only a few people who are kind and on the same hand open minded. I wanted to know her more, and I guess now I know her! Can’t say about “MORE”. I know there is still more to discover about her and I’m sure one day I will. She does her best for me to know her, I love the effort she puts to keep our friendship alive and making it strong day by day. Her Tik tok videos, Her different looks, Even a normal smiley grabs my attention. I don’t know why but when ever I see a new message in my inbox, I expect it to be her. Hope she never gets me wrong because she certainly one of the best thing that has happened to me.


I never met Her, but I feel I know her. We meet formal on instagram post whn she like my post n massaging me n I'm also interested to chat wid her thn become my friendship stronger day by day. Thank you my love 😍
P.S. Still there lots of friends about whom i am writing and will update this post soon.