Stay alive

How about you die, like right now?
I almost did.
I'm sorry, it's stupid to ask but what if?
Ever thought, what if just didn't make it through today?
Like..
You had a great night and clicked a lot of pictures with your friends and family but then you just met an accident.
And you died.
That'll be it, right?
'Forever' would stop FOREVER for you.
You would want to try coming back to life as your soul leaves your body and you try all you can to come back to life.
You'll be helpless.
And let's say you're even carrying any ID on you and of course your phone is password protected and nobody can access it and your family is waiting for you back home for dinner.
Your mom cooked your favourite dish or your girlfriend is waiting with a surprise or you have an important presentation the next morning for which you've been working all month long..
But;
What happens 10 minutes later your death won't matter to you anymore.
You're dead.
What matters is the last 3 seconds before you die.
I am talking to you about it because I just faced that.
I came home surviving the worst nightmare and it was a moment of the most brutal truth.
You know how they say that your whole life flashes before your eyes at a near death experience?
It doesn't. You don't see everything. Just the things you love, sort of!
The car that hit mine was more than 80km/h and ours was 30km/h or something and yet I saw the car come in almost slow motion.
It was happening in front of me.
I saw it when it hit me, but as the fates had it planned, I was fine but I didn't know that.

And those 3 seconds or so that I thought I have got made me think a thousand things at the same time.
I'm not who I want to be.
I'm not where I want to be.
My parents, who will tell them?
What's going to happen now!!
There's so so much I haven't done yet and so many people I have to meet.
The whole rush of all my friends faces and families faces rushed in my head and I couldn't do anything about it!
I knew I didn't want to die but I had no choice.
I was sure I'm dead.
And it gave me this thought too, which is the reason I'm writing this to you all people.
It's insanely true how any day could your last.
You may have plans for the weekend and you may not even see the weekday.
You may think how cool it'd be to put your life out of misery and be dead instead.
Oh, believe me..it's the stupidest thought you'll realise when it happens to you unplanned.
I wasn't satisfied with my life so far.
You know how they say if you'll be content when you die, you will accept death happily.
Hell no!
Life is so short we seriously have no idea.
As I write this, the sun has dawned upon us and the dates have changed.
Last night is just a memory to me, but had I not been lucky, it would have been the end of it.
There wouldn't have been this morning for me.
Just the last pictures.
The last words with people and some memories to live in.
Folks,
I won't tell you to live your day satisfying your needs to die peacefully.. that's crazy!
But boy, I will tell you this.
We'll never be satisfied but if we ever get to live each day with everything we can grab from those 24 hours..
Hell, it'll be the best thing ever.
Life is too short to be depressed, hold grudges, get angry, or stay jealous of people.
When you die, these things make no sense all.
You'll just be a body.
A dead body.
No feelings.
No emotions.
And no sense of what you missed behind in this amazing life.
Smile.
Love.
For in the end, that's all that matters.
Oh, and yeah;
Stay alive.

Rhapsody of the heartbroken.

Rhapsody of the heartbroken.

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“If you’ve never loved and hated someone at the same time, you’ve never truly been in love.”

Sure, there’s much more to love than just feelings. But the emotions we experience in love make such a lasting effect. We become our true selves because of how we feel about people.

I hate when you won’t talk to me. I hate how cold you are to me. Sure, you say words, but the conversations are shallow. It feels like I’m speaking to your shadow — not your real self.

I want us to become one and the same. I want a partnership, a unit, a love. I’m not sure if you’re scared or just not ready (which I understand), but I need you to know how much I want and need this.

I’m trustworthy, but you don’t seem to believe it.

I know you’re not to blame, though. You’ve had it rough for quite some time now. You’ve suffered from failed relationships, heartbreak and abandonment by your friends. I’m incredibly sorry for that.

I know I may have made some mistakes in the past, but I love you. I’m here for you and will always be here for you. Trust me.

I love you the way someone is supposed to love someone.

You’re someone I will never fully let go of; you are a part of me. I couldn’t leave you if I wanted to.

I hate that you don’t care about me the way I wish you did, but I know one day you could.

It hurts. When I look at you or talk to you, I can tell you don’t care about me the way I care about you.

And though it hurts unlike any pain I’ve endured before, it’s okay. I understand you don’t love me.

But you could. Because it just wouldn’t make sense that someone who loves someone as deeply as I love you wouldn’t receive that love in return. It just can’t be.

I don’t love you like I’ve loved anyone else before; I love you the way someone is supposed to love someone.

I hate myself for loving you, because I know I deserve better than this.

How does one let go of someone who has become a part of them? Tell me where to cut the cord, and I will.

I hate myself for loving you, because I know I deserve better than this. I know I deserve the love I’m giving you.

Why can’t you be that person to me? Why can’t you let me love you? If you won’t let me love you, at least let me hate you completely. I can’t go on loving and hating you at the same time. The tension inside me is building, and I’m feeling like I’m about to implode.

But I know this will one day all work itself out. You will either love me, or I’ll find a way to survive without you. It won’t be easy. I’m not even sure it’s possible to ever completely let go of you, but I have to try.

I won’t let you be the end of me, because there’s a life out there waiting for me to live it. Just know that this could have been beautiful. We could have been beautiful together.

And it wasn’t me who ruined it. Not this time.

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Depression

Depression is REAL.


I’ve received a lot of mental health advice over the year since my sister  died, and while the vast majority of said advice has been helpful, one troublesome comment keeps coming up.
“Aw, it’s okay. You’ll snap out of it; I mean, everyone gets depressed.”

Make no mistake: I know these words are well-intentioned. They are meant to lift my spirits and remind me I am okay, I will be okay, and that I am not alone. But every time I hear them, I cringe because they are not true.

They could not be further from the truth.

You see, depression isn’t a “bad day.” It isn’t a bad moment, a bad week, and everyone does not “get depressed” because depression is a disease — a disease which you cannot “shake,” you cannot “snap out of,” and you cannot wish away.

Depression is a disease you cannot will away.

That said, many use the word depressed to convey extreme sadness. In fact, the phrase “I’m depressed” may actually be more be common than “I’m sad.” The good news is this shift in vernacular has led to an unconscious shift in how we feel about depression, and what we think. But depression and sadness are not the same thing. Feeling depressed is not the same as having depression, and by saying things like this, we make things more complicated, we make things more confusing, we take away the seriousness of the disease, we minimize the disease, and we make the sufferer feel as though it is all in their head — a feeling they could, and should, be able to shake.

Sadness is a feeling; depression is an illness.

Sadness is an emotion, one of sorrow or pain, which almost always has an underlying cause/outside trigger (i.e. death, divorce, job loss, medical diagnosis, etc.). Depression, however, is a serious medical illness which can be “caused by a combination of genetic, biological, environmental, and psychological factors.” While the symptoms of depression can be intensified by an external factor, like those named above, these events do not cause depression.

Sadness may take away your desire to smile but depression will take away your ability.

I hate to use the word normal — since who defines what is or is not normal — but sadness is a normal emotion. It is a feeling we have in response to disappointment, or in response to hearing generally unpleasant, and sometimes tragic, news. Sadness can be felt when you lose a loved one, when you lose your job, when your friends cancel plans, or when your boyfriend/girlfriend breaks up with you. In short, sadness occurs when you are hurt. It comes in waves, and while sadness can linger, it is temporary.

Sadness will fade, but depression is constant. It is comprised of a series of symptoms ranging from extreme sadness and negative thinking to emptiness, hopelessness, worthlessness, and numbness. Depression can cause sleeping problems, eating problems, and concentration issues, and these symptoms are present, in one form or another, every minute of every day because happy thoughts cannot cure depression. Faith, money, and love cannot cure depression, and nothing can truly cure depression. It can only be treated and managed.

That said, it is a misconception that those who are depressed are perpetually sad and constantly crying. While these symptoms are common in the grips of a major depressive episode, for most, these feelings are not experienced on a weekly or even monthly basis. Instead, it is the other symptoms that make up their day-to-day life.

Everyone experiences sadness and grief but…

When loneliness persists, sadness sticks, and dismal feelings linger — when you become a shell of who you once were — you should consider something more may be at work, especially if you can’t “snap out of it.” Because there is no “snapping out of it” or “pulling yourself together” when you a struggling with depression. Even with the right medication. Even with all of the “tools.”

If you think you or a loved one think you may be suffering from depression, seek the counsel of a trained mental health professional — as this information is based solely on my experiences and should not be used to self-diagnose.
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Relaborated

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Sometimes our efforts will never be enough for someone. Sometimes our love for them will never be enough. Sometimes our care is not enough. Sometimes we are not just enough for them no matter how hard we try.

And you know what does that mean? They are not the right person for you. They are not the one who will spend the rest of your life with you. The one who truly loves you will never question your worth. The right person for you will appreciate all your love and efforts. The right person for you understands that you are not perfect, but will allow you to grow as a person.

When someone makes you feel unwanted, cut them off. You do not deserve to sleep every night questioning your worth. You do not deserve to feel like you are less of a person. You only deserve someone who treats you right. Someone who does not blame you for loving them real hard. Someone who equates the efforts you make.

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You deserve someone who does not only make you feel better, but makes you want to be better. S/He supports you and your goals. S/He’d listen to you blabber about your work like it’s the most interesting topic in the world. When you’re about to give up, S/He’d be your cheerleader and would keep you motivated all the way.

You deserve someone who is utterly obsessed with you. Who would call you at 2am just to tell you s/he wants to hear your voice. S/He would text you good morning not because they feels obligated to do so, but because you’re the first thing on their mind from the moment they wake up.

You deserve to be treated like a choice, not an option. You are not someone’s “maybe”. You deserve someone who loves you unconditionally. S/He would look at you in the eyes and make you feel like you’re the most beautiful person in the world. S/He knows that you are not perfect, but still treats you like you are.

You deserve to be pursued. You deserve to be treated with respect. You deserve someone who is genuinely interested in seeing you happy, in making you happy, in keeping you happy.

All of these you deserve and more, because you deserve to be loved. You deserve your own dose of magic. You deserve your own fairy tale. You deserve happiness. And above all else, you deserve these because you are worth it.

STUCK IN METRO

Stuck in a metro

And there's pretty much nothing to do other than observing people which made me realise that only faces change.
Categories of people remains the same!
For example..
I've always found this one dude who'll be very much interested in reading messages from the next guy's phone.
Like the one next ṭo me is doing!
Haha..
He's looking the other way now.
Then you'll find a guy who's just standing with no hopes to live.
A couple who recently got married maybe and are too excited about the metro tour.
A guy playing some game
Or watching a newly released Kannada movie dubbed in Marathi
A kinky couple who just cant see the crowd that gets in the metro at Rajiv Chowk.
They're literally blind in Lust-cum-Love! ( love the pun Here )
Some college going people laughing at nothing and disturbing the oldies around.
A guy and a Girl who'd get in the metro talking on call and just talking/whispering.
A creepy dude who'll always wear sunglasses no matter what time of the night it may be.
A cute girl listening to music or pretending to read a book.
Some exhausted corporate folks with a lady and discussing how to kill their boss!
A guy who's always ready to drop off on the next station but will never get down!
A dude texting some girl for a sleepover.
An uncle who's all fit but would demand the seat reserved for old people.
Some people who are heading to the railway station and can't stand so they'd sit on the floor of metro!
Some people who're drunk and argue to anyone about why Narendra Modi would look awesome with middle partition hairdo and a leather jacket!
A rich looking brat with gold all over his body who's apparently Bappi Da's Mausi Ka beta..
You'll see everyone's footwear and be your own judge if they have a good taste in it or not.
Some people carrying Aaloo paratha in a Zara carry bag because branding is must!
And the metro is about to reach my location..
I had some more categories..

Anyway, So you guys tell me what other kinds of people do you encounter while travelling in metro!!!

This should be fun!
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